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What’s Wrong With Me?

March 8, 2007

I browsed my friend edict's blog site ediqve.i.ph and I have read his latest entry about those children that he encountered during the community service. I was surprised because during our community service, which was required by De La Salle University, we were not given the task to visit and help poor and oppressed children. At first I was thankful because I really didn't want to mingle with those kinds of people kasi I'm not good in communication. Baka iyakan ko lang sila dahil naaawa ako sa kalagayan nila. Ayoko naman na isipin nila na kinakaawaan sila kasi I know masakit yon.

 I really feel guilty whenever I see children and elderly na naka-stay lang sa isang lugar, waiting for someone to offer some financial help. Almost all of the time I see people in this kind of situation I always feel like crying kahit nasa LRT or jeep ako. Pero I really hate myself because wala naman akong actions na ginagawa for them aside from giving out some amount. But I know that really won't help them kasi temporary lang un. Cguro ipambibili nila ng food tapos wala na. naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi I always want to be of help, pero mas naiisip ko pa rin ang sarili ko. It's really depressing. Is there something wrong with me?

One time I was in ortigas, I saw two very old women walking, holding a "tunkod" on their right hand and a plastic bag full of damit, i think, on the left. Then a few days after, while going home I saw them in Monumento, Caloocan. I was really shocked because they were walking and walking but going nowhere. From then on almost everyday ko sila nakikita in monumento, just walking, holding the same things. Who knows maybe everyday they go back and forth from both ends of metro Manila…. or father. Those women are about 60 to 70 years old and I think they are from a province. I coudn't do anything naman kasi I'm inside a bus. I really want to do something for them. But I could not alway give money naman kasi I'm still a student. Kahit naman ako nagigipit din.

It's really sad when you want to be of help but your actions are not reflecting it. Naiinggit nga ako sa ibang friends ko na talagang all out when it comes to helping people they hardly know. All I could do is pray for them. But I know that's not enough. I can't leave everything to God.

I really don't know how to end this article, but I really do hope na someday, may mailalagay ako dito in response to this, kasi I don't want to end up being helpless as well…

 

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